Sorry, no post today, I had to toil for the BBC, plus I had an oxygen attack (as in not getting enough) and it turns out that there is no longer nerve function on a cluster of nerves on my face. My doctor thought cutting there to “confirm” was NOT a good idea. Plus I have to go to get some tests tomorrow to make sure I didn’t have a heart attack last week. Sigh.
To be truthful, there is something about finding that your face is damaged.....forever, which still comes as a bit of a fucking surprise. I tried to keep cool about it but I was sobbing and saying over and over, “It’s my FACE!” Linda held my hand and squeezed and said softly, “I know.” We don’t know if this cluster is affecting the tongue (like why I have speech problems) or the intermittent palsy. All we know for now is that there is a line on my face where you can cut me, burn me, whatever, and I won’t feel it.
I’m sorry, I wish I had better news, I wish I could be witty but…..
Anyway, I do have one hair-brained plan on the go which I will tell you about tomorrow if things go well. So I’m not giving up, I’m just a bit shell shocked.
8 hours ago